You dont even know...
[THIS CONTAINS CUSSING. Sorry if I offend you; I just exploded.]Basically. My friends think I'm too serious.
'Zoe, we cant have fun and be our selves around you. Like, when you were away, we had fun and were silly. Then you came back and yell at us like my MOM. it's pissing me off, you needa learn to have fun!'
WELL SORRY IF I DON'T JUMP OFF TABLES, THROW CHAIRS, SPIT AT PEOPLE, CALL THEM NAMES AND GET INTO TROUBLE EVERY FIVE SECONDS.
MAYBE I YELL AT YOU TO STOP YOU FOR GETTING IN TROUBLE WITH THE TEACHER, SKANK.
Seriously. My friends act like whores at school all the time, flirting with boys, wearing WAY too much makeup, and teasing every girl in sight: 'God. Did you SEE her? She's UGLY!' Imagine if people said that to you and shut up.
And Jess: Her skirt is so short that you can see her FREAKING SHORTS, and she criticises me about mine. HELLO?! STOP FREAKING FLIRTING WITH RANDOMS AND LISTEN TO THE FREAKING TEACHER. STOP USING ME FOR MY FREAKING WORK
I cant handle this crap anymore. I'm sick of them teasing me about how I'm too tall, or my legs are too skinny, or I'm too this, or too that. SORRY THAT I'M NOT A FREAKING ANOREXIC, SHORT, MAKEUP WEARING SKANK LIKE YOU, BITCH.
FREAKING HELL. I just with they'd hate me and leave me alone.
I'm sick if being treated like shit, and being used for the work.
I'm sick of them teasing me then saying it was a joke.
I'm sick of them running off on me and leaving me alone.
I'm sick of them teasing me about Nick, Joe and Kevin, and how Nick's too 'curly' and Kevin's just a 'freak who cant play guitar'. I'm sick of them not even listening to the music, and thinking Joe's hot. HE'S NOT A PIECE OF FREAKING EYE CANDY. HE'S A DECENT PERSON, UNLIKE YOU.
I'm sick of them teasing me about wanting to to modelling: 'Zoe, they'd never take you, you aren't skinny enough, and you're not blonde'. Yeah. THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE ABSOLUTE SHIT.
I'm sick of them teasing me about EVERYTHING I do: 'Zoe, stand up straight, you look like an old man'. 'Zoe, stop walking like a freak and shrink'. 'Zoe, you look really stupid in a skirt'.
'BUT WE'RE JUST TELLING THE TRUTH!' SOMETIMES THE TRUTH HURTS.
I just want someone to come and make all the shit go away. I want someone to tell me I'm pretty enough. I want someone to tell me I CAN actually play the guitar. I want someone to hug me and tell me it'll be okay, cos right now, I seriously think I'll never be anyone.
Not even oldschool JonasBrothers and chocolate can make it better. THAT'S how bad this is.
MAKE IT GO AWAY.Labels: Save me from this insanity
Battle of the blondes: Hannah in, Avril out
This was basically the top article on the music section of my homepage. Laugh at it. I know I did.
Any regular reader of Perez Hilton will know the bitchy blogger has it in for 'faux-punk' pop star
Avril Lavigne. So his
report that sales for Avril's latest US tour have bombed should probably be taken with a grain of salt. Perez's source has attributed the poor sales to how late Avril has begun her tour, almost one year after the release of her last album,
Best Damn Thing.
Meanwhile, the 'best damn thing' for pre-pubescent teens at the moment may not be Avril Lavigne tickets, but tickets to
Hannah Montana shows. For those not down with the world of syrupy kids television shows,
Hannah Montana is about a fictional pop star played by Miley Cyrus. If the name "Cyrus" sounds familiar, Miley's father is country superstar Billy Ray Cyrus.
Other American dads have gone so far as to race each other dressed in drag, carrying baby dolls and balancing an egg, all in an attempt to win tickets to Hannah's massively popular tour as a prize. Sound weird? Even weirder is the fact that tickets are reportedly going for up to $5000 on the black market.
The whole thing is making people a little crazy. Overly litigious America now has "Hannah Montana" fans (or at least the parents of) suing the Miley Cyrus Fan Club, claiming they were promised priority seating but still missed out on tickets.
Frankly we'd take brash, opinionated Avril to hair-flipping, bimbo Miley any day. (And that's not just because we're
streaming Avril's concert next week).
=]Labels: Looks like us Jonas fans ARE right about her.
Take my hand tonight...
So, maybe boys arent total jerks.
Today, my friends and I had this massive fight about...eh. Stuff. So, the teacher made us have this discussion about it. It...helped. Partially. We're still not '
honest enough' with each other. Yeah. Dont care.
So, by the end of it, we[well, me] were all crying. And five boys come up to us, one of them being Jake, and he goes, 'Zoe, why are you crying?' So I basically died right there, cos i looked like crap, and go 'Cos we had this fight'. So then he smiles at me. Idk. Like, he can be a total jerk for five days, and that ONE smile makes it all better. So now I dont know what to think.
But whatever. This weekend I'm going to up to the country with my family. Two and a half hours of mixed cd's that
I get to make. OHYEAH. Too sweet. If I see a kangaroo, I'll record it for you all :].
*giggle*
You dont know what you've got till it's gone
Basically, Nicholas Jerry is making me fall for him again.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98HjS4UQs5sPersonally, I think there's more to him than he lets on. We're not seeing the real him, and we need to, because, well, I dont know...
We arent seeing the real Nick, there's something inside of him that's[if this doesnt offend anyone] hurting. I'm a little scared for him, like, all the pressure's freaking him out, and he's stressing. He needs a serious hug.
But, maybe I'm insane, pessimistic, and totally wrong.
Tell me what you think...
